GO AWAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Get out of my life! I don't need you to come bothering me every month, giving me a hard time!
Why oh why does this always happen to me? Everytime it's THAT time of the month, I'll just feel terrible, horrible, awful... It's like as if a monster just took over me unknowingly.
I hate it when the mood swings hit me... Everything becomes intolerable. The children's squabblings, the silly noises they make, the lame jokes my hubby shares... arrggghhh! Practically everything is wrong to me! All I want to do is hide at a corner and cry my heart out for no particular reason. The breakdown can be as short as a few minutes to as long as a day. I have tried to overcome the emotions by keeping myself busy. But it's just so tough. Tears flow out when I do the dishes, when I cook, when I surf the net, when I do anything. I choose to bottle up my feelings.
And when it finally get out of control, I explode! My hubby and 2 kids become my victim... Why must I do this? They were just being nice, trying their very best to brighten up my day. It's just me! Me and my irritating emotions.
To my dear hubby and beloved children, I'm truly sorry for what I did. I have never wanted this to happen. I didn't mean to raise my voice at you guys. Please bear with me for that 1 week of the month. I am really trying hard to change. I love you all so much and hurting you was never my intention. :'(
